Stumped

I've been working on my research project for 32164651351416310321654 days and between the kids, our house, sick kids this is a new breed of kid, didn't you know?, activities-blah, blah. I keep putting it on my back burner. But most importantly, my variables for this project are suffering because I take for granted they are doing what they are supposed to be doing. Ergh. What I need to be is a gnat in their ears continually repeating what they are supposed to be doing or all of our data will be compromised. And, I don't want to be gnat because I tend to feel like I'm one at home with my kids. Did you wash your hands? Did you put the Polly Pockets away before you started Art? My variables have been naughty with this project that they volunteered to be in so I have to find a new way to re-define them in my project so that it doesn't mess with the overall intent. I've been tackling all my research with my textbooks, the internet, other publications by docs and I'm STUMPED. I'm leaning toward finding new subjects...but that's a whole 'nother blog. 80% of me is saying "Why did you go back to school!!!?" I always do this. I get this streaming beam of dedication to finish school I put on a cape and tights swearing I'm invincible. and then guilt hits me. Moms not saying Dads don't know too you know what "guilt" I'm talking about. You walk in the door from being gone for 3 hours and the whole house including Husband-sorry, honey-it's true acts like you've been gone hiking Mt.Everest.

Let's play a game, match the quote to the corresponding family member. There's one that all of them say.

• Mommy, why were you gone soooooo long?
• Mommy, where you was?
• Mommy, I'm hungry. Always...now I understand if Madi looks at me and thinks food but they ALL do!
• Mommy, I misssssssed you.
• Honey, Dev/Madi want you to change their diaper...they just went poop!

With a welcoming like that I can't help but never want to leave them. Don't get the wrong picture Husband is beyond supportive. It's the guilt. It is. I know most of you are saying "Get over it." Easier said than done. They come first.

Where was at with this? I always do this! Anyway, I'm stumped on my researching more like I'm frustrated with my variables that I want to rip my hair out. New subjects, fresh start-take in account that the variables are fallable and watch more carefully or salvage what I have? I'll get through it. Always do. I'm in a 12 step writing program...I'll break through soon and I'll have a great publication to show for it. And, healthy subjects.

I love them and as demanding as they can be at times...they're my snuggle bugs. Okay, back to work.