So, I made one of the hardest decisions for Dev that I have had to make thus far. Not because it was horrible situation because Mommy said "enough". Those who know me...do I get a round of applause for turning off the "just say yes" button?
It has been one sickness after another after another in our house. Four sick is a lot for any one person but on top of it Daddy and I have been catching sneak attack colds that are vicious but never bacterial infecting (which I guess we should be thankful for). Our two middle ones, Dev and Nana who spend the most time together are our frequently sick kiddies. When Tiny is sick she is like a leech (literally) she is stuck to me and I can not break free. When I do I feel bad...poor thing, right? She is left to cry when I have to use two hands which isn't often but still, very sad.
Dev hasn't been feeling well or himself for awhile. He has been consistently not wanting to go to school. He has been home with Mommy a lot. Even when he is well enough to go he's been staying home. He was feeling torn at school between friends which made him more clingy as well. Plus we've had some tummy issues that make potty an issue at school. He has been worried the whole time at school that he might have to go #2 and Mommy won't be there. He is getting over some anal fissures that are healing but if you've had them you know it is a uphill battle. Madi is fine in the classroom but she can't really be there it messes with our class number for adult:child ratio for insurance purposes so I tried to stay for a bit and then go. He would be fine with me leaving and then be upset later that I left. The anxiety of me not being there was just getting to be too much.
It has gotten to the point where I'm thinking Homeschooling Pre K as a serious option. He knows everything he needs to know for Kindergarten, including writing his name and we are starting on letter sounds. He knows 10 thus far. So, we've looked into that option previously as our Co-Op hours don't coincide with the girls' dismissal time. And, another reasonable preschool has came up that has a morning schedule that would work as well. We are tossing a few things around and right now I can experiment with the idea of homeschooling...why?
We dropped the Co-Op. I needed to put Dev's needs first and this is what he needed. He will miss his friends but no doubt that we will see them around. We are great about play dates. And, he will try some new stuff at the local Rec Center ie Gymnastics, Music, etc. He is getting over Strep and an Ear Infection currently. We have consultations with an Allergist and Ear/Nose/Throat doc to see what we can do preventive wise for our little sick guy. It's never any fun and for us 1+1=time to let go.
Do I feel guilty? Horribly. I am keeping my commitment to the Co-Op as Chairperson. Madi is enrolled to go there next year in the 2's Class. After talking to the Community College Instructors I can not continue officially as a Chairperson. Where does that leave them? We do have a Vice Chair that will step in and take over. I feel doubly horrible about my decision because it is now going to have effect the whole Board. We have a strong Board so I am confident in our/their abilities. I am fortunate that way. Our Vice Chair is getting ready to have a baby this upcoming Monday (great timing on my part, huh?). Although, I may not officially be able to serve/volunteer I will be helping with Agendas, be at Board Meetings and find a new place for our preschool as the elementary school we are in currently is closing due to low enrollment. My new title? Community Liaison. I have put them in quite a predicament but you know, if I wasn't Chairperson I would've pulled him out so I had to think first about Dev and then how or what I could about the rest.
It has been one sickness after another after another in our house. Four sick is a lot for any one person but on top of it Daddy and I have been catching sneak attack colds that are vicious but never bacterial infecting (which I guess we should be thankful for). Our two middle ones, Dev and Nana who spend the most time together are our frequently sick kiddies. When Tiny is sick she is like a leech (literally) she is stuck to me and I can not break free. When I do I feel bad...poor thing, right? She is left to cry when I have to use two hands which isn't often but still, very sad.
Dev hasn't been feeling well or himself for awhile. He has been consistently not wanting to go to school. He has been home with Mommy a lot. Even when he is well enough to go he's been staying home. He was feeling torn at school between friends which made him more clingy as well. Plus we've had some tummy issues that make potty an issue at school. He has been worried the whole time at school that he might have to go #2 and Mommy won't be there. He is getting over some anal fissures that are healing but if you've had them you know it is a uphill battle. Madi is fine in the classroom but she can't really be there it messes with our class number for adult:child ratio for insurance purposes so I tried to stay for a bit and then go. He would be fine with me leaving and then be upset later that I left. The anxiety of me not being there was just getting to be too much.
It has gotten to the point where I'm thinking Homeschooling Pre K as a serious option. He knows everything he needs to know for Kindergarten, including writing his name and we are starting on letter sounds. He knows 10 thus far. So, we've looked into that option previously as our Co-Op hours don't coincide with the girls' dismissal time. And, another reasonable preschool has came up that has a morning schedule that would work as well. We are tossing a few things around and right now I can experiment with the idea of homeschooling...why?
We dropped the Co-Op. I needed to put Dev's needs first and this is what he needed. He will miss his friends but no doubt that we will see them around. We are great about play dates. And, he will try some new stuff at the local Rec Center ie Gymnastics, Music, etc. He is getting over Strep and an Ear Infection currently. We have consultations with an Allergist and Ear/Nose/Throat doc to see what we can do preventive wise for our little sick guy. It's never any fun and for us 1+1=time to let go.
Do I feel guilty? Horribly. I am keeping my commitment to the Co-Op as Chairperson. Madi is enrolled to go there next year in the 2's Class. After talking to the Community College Instructors I can not continue officially as a Chairperson. Where does that leave them? We do have a Vice Chair that will step in and take over. I feel doubly horrible about my decision because it is now going to have effect the whole Board. We have a strong Board so I am confident in our/their abilities. I am fortunate that way. Our Vice Chair is getting ready to have a baby this upcoming Monday (great timing on my part, huh?). Although, I may not officially be able to serve/volunteer I will be helping with Agendas, be at Board Meetings and find a new place for our preschool as the elementary school we are in currently is closing due to low enrollment. My new title? Community Liaison. I have put them in quite a predicament but you know, if I wasn't Chairperson I would've pulled him out so I had to think first about Dev and then how or what I could about the rest.
As parents we do we can do for our children and what we see is best for them. Dev is over strep and feeling better. He is not afraid to go #2 with me around so he is going more often which will help his bottom heal. I'm sighing in relief in so many ways but still have overwhelming guilt and feeling like a Preschool Drop Out. I'm grateful for the support of good family and friends who are always willing to help out. Thank you, all. :)
2 comments:
You did what was best for your family. There is never anything wrong with that!
Hey Sheree! I was reading your blog too and came across this entry. I was a kindergarten teacher before Josie was born so if you do decide to homeschool Pre-K, I would be glad to help you if you ever need any advice on what's going to happen in the coming year. :)
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